On the night of 17th of June 2015

I got scolded for being a little messy and not doing so well at work but no worries, I stayed positive, my work is done and I came home happy. Logged on to my wonderful baby PC and waited for it to load everything. As I waited patiently, my tummy was churning with excitement and I couldn't stand to play my game again. I love the feeling of coming home to the world I love. 

Somehow, today I felt.. useless... I am playing with a friend of mine (initially) which he invited a few of his guy friends to play. Guys being a more common gender to play games compared to girls. I didnt mind it, the more the merrier, yada yada yada. But after a while, being the only girl there, and a working one too while the others are not working, having their semester break, I got left behind. I was by far, not well aware of anything happening, not knowing what to do so I just stood on a cliff (the homebase is on a beautiful cliff which overlooks the lake below) and stared. Because I really have no idea what to do. They are off talking about hunting for materials (we chatted on Mumble) and hunting for food and well, I am the only one with no transportation (a trike killed my raptor because I am an ass for bringing out hunting). 

I don't want to sound sensitive and all but no matter what I do, I am sensitive, I tend to over think stuff. Some of them said I can always join them, I can always do anything I like but what I did may not be something that they like so I avoid doing anything unless told (just my character). And I don't want to be treated as a girl, being treated like I needed help every single time which thankfully they did not. I am a big girl, I can take care of my own. 

I know all this sounds far-fetched like OMG it's just a game. but behind that other computer is a human being. They still can feel emotions and annoyance is the last thing I want them to think about.

So, tomorrow onwards, I will have to rely on my own, they had build one beautiful case with fences, i will have to run around and try to hunt back for the same colour raptor that died (it was black with gray spots with a bluish purple spine, I didn't get to take a picture with it). Anyway, it is time for me to sleep. I have work tomorrow. It's a THURSDAY tomorrow, which means 1 more day to the weekend since Friday night to me is considered the weekends. 

And as always, thank you for reading. Goodnight.

On the 12th of June 2015.

Today is one of those memorable days where I will lose my head and completely rely on nothing and just go with the flow of things. I can't believe that for one game, to be specific, Ark: Survival Evolved, I would drive all the way, almost got into an accident, just to find a desktop microphone to communicate. (I got one at Harvey Norman)

Ark:Survival Evolved is a FPS (First Person Shooter), survival, prehistorical game where you are stranded naked, with nothing on, and you have to survive. The game itself is very breathtaking and almost life like situations such as too hot, freezing cold, injuries, hunger and oxygen deprivation. The key point of this game is that you can build houses, tame dinosaurs, ride them to battle and if you go further in game, you can actually craft guns. The game is still in early access and I would give a big KUDOS to the developers. In my opinion, it is a solid game, not so easy as it looks game. I died a few times before succeeding in understanding the game.

I would suggest watching this before getting to know or buy the game. 

Anyway, I went to have my favourite Chilli Pan Mee with my boyfriend. In my head, i am already contemplating, should I buy my headphones. I have been looking at this headphone for more than 2 years. It is the Steelseries Siberia V2 Frost Blue Illumination Edition. My boyfriend, being cheeky, keep poking me into buying them. So, i finally decided to get. after counting my budget, of course. 

 Here it is! Finally you are in my hands.

 This is the inside. I didnt know there is a flap where you can open to view it. 

 This is the headphones. The top bars are metal, supporting two 50mm plastic ear cups which held metal strings connected to a flat soft piece of cloth for comfort.

 It comes with a USB extension and a quick start book. The earphones comes with a download of the software where you can customize the equalizer and the lights.

And this is it in its glorious blue light. 

With this headphones, my PC setup is almost finished. I left only an SSD, a keyboard and another monitor and I am completely done with the upgrades. Yes, I am aiming a little too high but a girl has to dream.

Edit: I am currently wearing the headphones to test how long does it take for me to feel uncomfortable. It has been an hour and I can feel a little pressure on the side of my cheeks but nothing major. Still alive and kicking.

Thanks for reading!